not really sure why im writing in my live journal since i havent in a really long time. i guess it could be since im bored and i have alot on my mind. once again my computer is broken, i hate it. and yea things in my life havent been going good lately...ive made some bad decisions which only led me to getting hurt once again but i'll just have to move on...
so im in class right now not really doing my work so i decided that i would update my journal to occupy my for the next 15 minutes. ive decided that i want another tattoo and i think im going to go right after this class and go get it, im excited i think its going to be really cute. My birthdays in 5 days another thing to be excited about i'll finally be 19 woo hoo. thursday night/friday i think we all may be going to see saw 2 not really sure about that one yet but we'll see then saturday we're all going to a cabin party where i plan on getting insanely drunk and playing some beer pong.
so fall out boy was absolutely amazing..it was worth the $30.. but its monday and time to go back to school tomorrow which is sad but im excited to get back and see everyone.
ok so things have def gotten alot better then since my last entry. ive gotten over all my shit with guys and jim and i are talking again...so all in all ive been in a good mood lately...a few other things have been bothering me and i dont really know what to do about them but oh well..their are alot of things that im looking foward to one of them being fall out boy...yay and a few other things but yea thats enought writing for now
okay so i havent updated in a really long time. ive decided maybe its time i give a little update even though things in my life havent really been that great recently. so here goes...i liked a guy who i thought liked me back, every guy that has ever liked me ive never really had feelings for but this one i really liked. i never ever tell people how i feel about them especially if i like them because most guys i like dont like me back but i let my gaurd down and let this one know how i felt about him. all summer we talked about being back at school and hanging out and whatever. but of course what happens nothing. the first day back he came to see me as soon as he got here and everything seemed good i was really happy. but then whenever we were supposed to hang out he would ditch me. when we finally did hang out everything was good..but now its 2 weeks later and i have not spoken to him since the last time that i saw him and i dont get why. i dont get what happened from the time that i saw him...im starting to think that i'll never be happy because everything i want just never works out for me and i dont understand why. and now to top it off the one person that i need in my life isnt talking to me and maybe it is my fault. all i wanted was for things to be how they used to but im starting to see that they never will. and what bothers me even more is that i feel like i care way to much about the whole situation then he does. i guess i depended on our friendship way to much and i would give anything to have it back to the way it was. all i want is to be happy and i dont know why thats so difficult
so today really hasnt been that great. one reason being im an idiot and drank to much so ive been nautious all day. although last night was really fun even though i dont remember half of it...i <3 my friends! and the second reason being that i found out today that my brothers wife just doesnt feel like being married anymore so she left him...what a bitch! i never really liked her anyway but i feel really bad for my brother and hes all the way in buffalo so he doesnt have any family around sigh...i guess just somethings dont work out.
not much going on really...was woken up at 10:30 in sunday so take a drive up tp pawling to see nicole, wound up drinking a little which is always fun. came back early on sunday and just hung around, went driving around last night since there was nothing better to do and some crazy bitch pulled in front of me fucking around and i have jim and cara honking my horn like crazy...always fun. today we took a trip to some greek restaurant, it was pretty good. then jay finally called me so we chilled for awhile and now im just sitting around my house kinda bored but enjoying the peace...
got home tues...feels good to be back.havent really been to productive but ive seen alot of people since ive been back. tues i hung out with linda for awhile then i got energized and decided i wanted to move my room around and that took up some time but it looks cute. yesterday i hung out with jim kas and cara, then kas and i went to a hooka bar with billy and amit which was fun. today i went to tj maxx to try and work and i had to fill out another application sooo annoying although im prob not even gunna work for that long my mom just wants me to have some spending money. i may try to apply to other places but i have no way of getting anywhere w/o a car so it would have to be somewhere close ugh i hate working. just saw hill and jess outside so i sat out there for awhile and now im back at home hungry and sitting around being lazy. its so beautiful outside i cant wait for beach weather.
today was a good day....had my english final..went well....finally got to hang out with adam :) it was a fun afternoon...had a another softball game today..and we're in the playoffs woo hoo
6 days and counting
Mogilski....out
Your Birthdate: October 30
Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.
You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.
You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.
You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.
You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.
Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.
There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.
You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.
so with only 7 days left the semester is slowly comming to an end. i never really realized how much i would miss being home and all of my friends..i really do miss them <3. its going to be nice to have the summer and just do whatever. in a way i guess i will miss school and being able to do whatever without having my parents ask me where im going every second...but its not that bad. most likely i will be working this summer..well part of it anyway. next semester i'll be a dix chick so that should be fun... in other new...coby tots had a game today and we won wooh hoo...another game tomorrow i reckon it shall be fun. i've also been really happy lately...and i know the reason for that :).
today was a good day...made me smile :). had softball practive today....how'd you like that action? yup im good. i have a softball game tomorrow at 4:15 and i have class till 4:30 so we're gunna have to see if i can make it...hopefully we'll win again. so i found out that i have two finals during monday and one one tuesday during finals week. im so mad im going to be here forever while jim (gfn) will be home days and days before me. im so so excited for the summer its going to be the best. OMG KILL ME.... anyway sigh i havent been to the gym in so long im so angry im missing it. i have a floor meeting tonight on housing..i really wanna switch building but we'll see what happens with that... i kind of doubt that it will happen although i hope that it does. ..okay well things to do, people to do, places to go blah blah blah
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.
only one month or so till the summer...im so excited. im gunna have to work, where i dont know but it should be good. ugh i cant wait. last week was probably the most work ive had to do in awhile but i got it all over and done with. i've been hitting the gym alot lately which is good...buns of steel! yup. at the moment um sick....all of nicole and jims fault im gunna kill them. But yea this month should be a fun month..softball will be starting...nicole and i are killers...and if i go to pawling with nicole and jim that should be a fun experience. the only thing that would make me even happier is if i had a boyfriend *sigh* soon i hopwe. okay well lots of work to do. ttfn
lately ive been feeling really unhappy....even if i am happy its just for a moment and it disappears i cant even explain why ive been feeling this way...i mean i kinda know why but i think theres alot more to it, and it really sucks. all of the things that once made me happy are just slowly fading away. also ive also come to the conclusion that i care to much about things..so basically im just not going to care anymore and whatever happens happens. i hate feeling so empty and alone
breaks been good so far...havent really done much though...friday and sat i went out with some people it was fun....last night i drove around with kas for awhile aimlessly then decided to pick up cara and go to the witches brew which is always fun...went shopping and got a few clothes which is also fun...not really anything going on tonight....my comp is still broken so i have to wait for the new hard drive to arrive which means all my music is gone, and i had so much and all my pictures and schoolwork are gone...sucks
only 5 more days till hoooooooome...why do i feel like its gunna take forever to get here. my horoscope for today: Your closest relationships may be the source of uncertainty, but within the confusion of not knowing, there is a spark that can ignite the renewal you've been seeking. Your mind may be drifting all over the map, but each time the inspiration strikes, you get to see things clearly. This is a time of great change and you can make anything happen that you imagine.
havent updated in a long long time........ nothing new going on in my life lately.spring break is in 14 days and i cant wait to go home. i saw the notebook last night it was the cutest movie ever..it made me cry. i kinda want to go to the gym for a little while tonight but i guess we'll just have to wait until later to see if it actually happens..i know im skinny and all but i dont i dont like my body...theres actually alot of things that i dont like about myself..o well.
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